featuring me trying to organize my thoughts for the world to see and miserably failing. pick and choose which ones are least cringey and enjoy.

*thumbs up*


-jojo rabbit (which sounds absolutely insane but also kinda lowkey amazing and taika watiti directed it and it’s amazing)

-yellow rose (oh sweet mercy it’s getting spread everywhere represent *clap clap clap*)

-black widow (excuse me while i go shriek)

-soul (pixar what you doing)

-onward (!!!!)

-frozen 2 (yes, laugh but see that was one of the first movies i can remember actively watching with my sister and i miss my sister so there)

-toy story 4 (had too many messy plot twists but it teared me up more than once and by the time the credits rolled our plane landed in the philippines so it was kinda like literally saying goodbye to the past)

-new star wars movie (*eternal internal screaming*)

-listen yes tito i know endgame was a mess and time travel was a cop-out but as a content creator it gives me a lot of stuff to work with so it’s not entirely terrible


-keeper of the lost cities: legacy (chloe got me into keeper of the lost cities and i’m a little scared, not gonna lie)

-supernova (i’ve seen it in ig posts along with fawkes??? is it good? someone tell me please i beg you)

-black widow prelude comic (scared, very scared, extremely scared)

-captain america the first avenger script (i need this for personal reasons)

-this really good fanfic that i won’t link here to protect the youngs (i am this close to writing a post about fandom even though it’s been done and even though it’s obscure much like myself)

-andrew peterson wrote a new book and i really, really wanna read it


-i killed a spider with a flip flop all by myselfses and now i miss frubs because he used to do it

-me and weez are doing a really cool thing that would probably be more cool if timezones didn’t exist

-bible bee nationals are in a few days and i has a bunch of friends going (rebcake, light4thelord) and again, more screaming

-clara’s sunset fall instagram stories are making me cry with nostalgia that i don’t have

-maggie started a new blog and she deserves a call out because way to go girl โค

-also i could link them but for some reason i’m not, hmm

-tess is probably the only reason why i’m still trying to finish my nano wip

-christi and hannah’s poetry both have this special way of hitting close to to home (i’ll willingly link in comments if you want, they’re both amazing people with beautiful thoughts)

-i’m pretty sure i was supposed to do a blog tour?? (really sorry kellyn, i’m working on it) and another one with tales of the lonely sun (more specifically merie) and just shucks it’s pretty cool

-enni spammed my inbox/chatthing/whatever with like, 350 messages and to this day i will never understand why

-i really really need keith’s help with worldbuilding because i’m clueless about stuff like fantasy

-garrett’s photography. uhm. WOAH.

-sarah’s art is mindblowing and i’m scared of her talent but also just in awe

-in this household we love and support emmie, who is doing great with the whole school AND dance thing and so much more

-ava come mourn with me about all four fingers being used on the uke it’s terrible

-abby does dead mom from beetlejuice make you cry too because i’m crying

-chloe i’m this close to asking you to spoil legacy for me and also i’m crying just thinking of aren ya can’t leave me hAnGiNg-


-my uncle said the beetles were the greatest and i bEg tO dIffEr

-he also said that ben rector was not bad but could be better excuse me

-MALINDA is just. *shrieks* really relatable and her vocal tone is just beautiful


-clara got me back into the lumineers and their music kinda reminds me of small towns and tiny houses and small roads and basically one of my homes

-because it’s christmas music season i’ll be blasting his story the musical’s “hey, it’s me,” “arrive”, and “was the word” til at least january, thank you very much. (THEY MIGHT BE ON BROADWAY AND THAT GIVES ME HOPE)

-been playing with a soundtrack for another idea i’ve been working on and i regret not being a composer

-beetlejuice. just. *mindblown* (yes, it does have issues but the themes are pretty great for all the spooks)

-beautiful people by pomplamoose


-the guy that worked on the winter soldier soundtrack is supposed to work on black widow???? i can die in peace now the world has peaked

-the sounds of like, 40 kids singing your grace is enough on a sunday morning is so deeply beautiful


-good grief i have zero romantical attractions or any intent to have any so why am i writing a whole book about it

-there are too many ideas in my brain and i’m pretty sure it’s not healthly to try to things at the same time

-i feel compelled to write this lengthy fanfic and a blog post about it because that’s so relevant (i’m being sarcastic)

-there is squealing, fangeek, love-every-line-of-every-paragraph, overall enchanted with a story jo and there’s critical, analyzing, philosophizing, will re-read a scene to break down every individual component of a character jo and there is no in between

-i have done more writing research than i have writing at this point

file not found randomness

-ok boomer is a thing and i really wanna write a discourse about it because on one hand, is it fair to dismiss an entire generation based on their conflicting thoughts? no. have many of said generation abused and made fun of younger generations, leaving behind a crueler world to survive in and mocking steps to make the world softer? yes. is it kinda funny? yup. do i need to get a life? absolutely.


-vietnam war research time, one for school, two for aio lore, which says that whit’s son jerry died in the vietnam war (which must mean that focus on the family portrays it as a good thing), three for everyone who protested it

-and call me crazy but maybe it’s okay to look up these old, random, truly not that important stuff for. y’know. for research

-it’s kinda funny but also kinda confusing how some christians will be especially o_0 if you say “hey, i like studying the bible for fun!” and they’re like “IMPOSSIBLE” because on one hand, yes, the bible is sacred and should be treated as such, but on the other, God meant this book to lead us to actual joy? and? like? why would you not find joy in studying it? someone elucidate?

yeah, like that was any clearer than when i started.

i dunno that it’s beneficial to present these thoughts, raw, and unfiltered, incomplete and personal. i really don’t. maybe they just raise questions about the integrity of my mind (read: none) and maybe they just turn people off.

but i read somewhere that we develop as a society, not merely by sharing tangible matters, but by sharing the thoughts of our mind (it was about nasa releasing articles you usually find when you pay for scientific journals and i was pretty stoked even though i had no clue what the what any of it was about) so, if you got anything from this random thrift store of thoughts, feel free to take it home.

and hey, if you wanna feel like unloading your mind, that would be cool. i’ll add it to the list.


~and i know, it’s only in my mind, jo~

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  1. Meep! You like Keeper Of The Lost Cities too? It’s actually my most favorite book series ever! (Bc I’m just really a big kid who likes kids books ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿคฃ) But it’s really good writing!
    Also The Rise Of The Skywalker ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ‘€ I saw the trailer (the second it came out) and I pretty much cried. (“Taking one last look, Sir. At my friends.” ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿคง๐Ÿคง๐Ÿคง๐Ÿคง๐Ÿคง๐Ÿคง๐Ÿคง๐Ÿคง๐Ÿ˜ค๐Ÿ˜ค๐Ÿ˜ค๐Ÿ˜ค๐Ÿ˜ค๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ซ) Also here’s hoping that Rey kills Kylo with a lightsaber and r*ylo will end ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿคž๐Ÿคž

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      1. AHHHHHHHHH YES. That trailer tho ๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ญ And reylo is just ugh. No. ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ
        Do you ship Rey with anyone though? Finn + Rey makes my heart scream in fangirl feels, but do you ship her with anyone? I’m curious.. (it’s ok if you don’t)

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      2. *is a little burrito that is hopeless at ships* either it’s just me, or i’m so used to seeing them as besties, but i will take finn + rey any day over the *shudders* other one.

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    1. oh my goodness i actually did not know that (stay a child forever please penny the world depends on it) AND IT IS. i was reading it a few days before flying out and i was like, “WOAH.” the whole time.
      stahp making me cryyyyy that seriously tore me up. and honestly? i would not mind that. kylo gives me issues. XD but hey, whatever happens will happen.


    1. *screams* my friend and i love talking about what on earth it might mean for pixar (cough cough pixar theory) and i mean, chris pratt AND tom holland AND octavia spencer? GIMME.


  2. I wuv it when you do posts like this.
    And no, I’m not spoiling Legacy for you UNLESS you’ve read all the other books and even then I’d rather get you an e book copy because each book is so complex and I’m sure Legacy is no different. *screams cause I want it but I still have to wait until Thursday save me*

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      1. Remember how I told you about that book series that had a character that reminded me of Casey in some ways and Aren in others? That’s Renegades. I NEED. SUPERNOVA. But I’m 27th in line for it at the library.

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  3. So, this post made me happy for many different reasons. I wish more people would do things like this! Because one, it’s different and entertaining, and two, polished professional posts can be great, but this is what I really love to read. It feels like my favorite kind of conversation, where everybody is just relaxed and not really bothering to hide anything. ๐Ÿ˜€ Anyway. PIXAR! Soul looks so incredible and the COLORS in the trailer are the most beautiful thing my eyes have ever witnessed. Yayyy, welcome to the madness that is the kotlc fandom! >:) I’m happy the result of my bored photography wanderings during random errands was something good. ๐Ÿ™‚ Oh! Ben Rector! 30 MINUTES UNTIL HE ANNOUNCES WHATEVER THAT WAS HE HINTED ABOUT ON INSTAGRAM. I think of you every time I listen to The Lumineers. XD I love that description of their music, you got it exactly right. My sister swore she didn’t like their songs, but I heard her playing Sleep On The Floor on the ukulele yesterday. ๐Ÿ˜€
    You made my brain (which was going PLEASE NOT ANOTHER MONDAY) remember the happy things instead. So thanks. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. *splutters* clara, i- i, i don’t know how to thank you (yes, i’m seriously spluttering in real life. XD) it’s one thing to think people MIGHT like your weird stuff, but when they say they DO makes me overly happy. so. thank you. XD uhm and yes i keep watching that trailer and just so much of it makes me scream– that. color!!! *dies* it’s a *cough* very crazy fandom. i’m a little scared. DOES ANYONE DIE? O_O and it was very good indeed– i got major inspiration for a story i shelved a long time ago. AND WHAT WAS IT I’M IN A DIFFERENT TIMEZONE SO WHAT
      okay now i’m really crying. XD honestly their songs are kinda me practically all of the time. and yesssssss ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ i gotta learn that on the uke sometime, hmm.
      โค aw, i'm glad. you're welcome clara's brain. and you're very welcome clara. ๐Ÿ™‚


      1. Aw, you’re quite welcome. ๐Ÿ˜€
        *slightly evil grin* It is most definitely an insane fandom. As for death… you’ll have to read and find out for yourself. >:) Oh yay, that makes me happy! And you’ve probably seen by now, but it was a tour! He’s coming to my state. 0_0 *tries not to get my hopes up and fails*
        Ooh, you should. It’s really easy to play, and quite fun to sing. Kinda feels like it should be played while hanging out a car window. ๐Ÿ˜€
        โค ๐Ÿ™‚


  4. I love this post a lot! And I wouldn’t mind any post you had to do about fandoms or your fanfic at all.
    And I swear I always do more research than writing, I relate to that hard >_< (except when I'm a moron and don't do any research at all (I know how to write about Ancient Egypt! I watched a movie set there once! XD) )

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    1. whups, you just enabled a very rabid geek to unleash her unnecessary rants about fandom onto the unsuspecting world XD bewarned– thank you though. that’s really sweet of you ๐Ÿ™‚
      AND YES. (ancient europe ftw)

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  5. ok jo, so i almost never comment on your posts and that needs to change.
    -frozen 2- i am going to see this and i’m ridiculously excited
    -star wars- um, i do not like TLJ but i hope ROS is much better
    -legacy- yes it’s good. better than flashback. much better, so go read it.
    -andrew peterson- oh my goodness this is the best book i’ve read in a long time. i need to review it.
    there. i have commented. also managed to not use caps at all, which is very hard.
    i โค your posts and your blog
    ~i sort of unloaded my mind, so there you go, maya~

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    1. *squee*
      heh. i’m honestly not sure why i started not-capping, but i’m too lazy to switch back, so. heh.
      โค we love you back too maya.
      ~i think that's beautiful, and your thoughts are truly delightful, jo~


  6. okay please send that fanfic to me if you can because i am highkey obsessed with fanfic

    AND YOU LISTENED TO BEETLEJUICE! yay Iโ€™m so happy because while things are problematic yes the ~spooky~ vibes are coming all out. and dead mum makes me sob like a baby so thatโ€™s fun. whatโ€™s your favourite song? (sorry none of my friends have listened to it so Iโ€™m kinda geeking out right now) x

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    1. wait girl but what fandom you in i need specificsss (there’s actually two, but it’s a super long mcu one that i lowkey love)

      YES. i honestly love dead mom, barbara 2.0, what i know now, home, and jump in the line (and it’s so weird because for a show about death it really emphasizes how beautiful life is and i love that, coming from a suicidal background) yours? (OH MA WORD CHILD COME HERE WE SHALL TALK ABOUT MUSICALS AND MUTTER MY SHOT UNDER OUR BREATHS)

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      1. okay so fandom wise I kinda like a bit of everything? like are you talking movie fandom or book fandom? Iโ€™m into both haha

        the vocals in home are just ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿฝ and my faves would probably be creepy old guy (problematic theme but nice song?? idk I like the tune) fright of their lives (the monologue) barbara 2.0, and what I know now. and yes it really does??? same girl, I feel you there xx OH HECK YES LET US PLEASE ALSO I AM WORKING MY WAY THROUGH COME FROM AWAY

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      2. okay but more specifically
        -musical fandoms (THEN IT’S WHICH MUSICAL BWAH)
        -movie franchises (MCU, SW– the fanfic is a Avengers Civil War fanfic, btw)
        -comic fandoms (Marvel, DC, Anime)
        which oneeeeeeeeee

        honestly creepy old guy was hilarious XD doesn’t lydia end up not marrying beetlejuice anyway? i’ve always read that song as a blatant callout on p*dos, AND YES
        >:) oh ma word it gets better FINISH IT

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      3. oh ho ho this shall be interesting:
        -okay so this is stereotypical but hamilton got me into musicals and stuff but my all time favourite is be more chill probably. THE SQUIP BOYYY! and currently beetlejuice/come from away (still in process no spoilery spoilers)
        -ummm,,, i donโ€™t know what those stand for?? donโ€™t kill me?? but ooh that sounds interesting cause i do this thing where I watch some of the movies/read some of the books and then do fanfics the whole way from there – like Harry potter! and I like civil war stuff so Iโ€™ll go check the link out (I found it on the bottom haha)
        -overall thatโ€™s it Iโ€™m primarily a musical fandom person

        she does but then SPOILER they kill him immediately so ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ also pick one to have in your life – squip vs our pal bj YES FINALLY SOMEONE WHO GETS IT the entire thing is so sarcastic and p*dos donโ€™t deserve such a good song
        I will!! working on it now – long car trips are my friend

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    We *are* doing a cool thing. ๐Ÿ™‚ โค It's gonna be amazing.


    The boomer thing annoys me because all generations are messed up bc people are messed up bc the world is messed up and i'm messed up, y'know?

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      ๐Ÿ™‚ twas will. ๐Ÿ˜€

      i’m already dead, just give it to me already pixar

      *clapity clap clap clap* your neighbor two streets down is messed up and the person writing this is messed up and we’re all messed up so trying to mess each other up gets us all messed up. it’s a mess.

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  8. *whispers shyly* does this said Hannah who writes poetry happen to be me? Because if so… *blushes* gosh dang girl you are so sweet and exactly why I want to put poetry online. You warm my heart. ๐Ÿ’—

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      1. yeah, hi people from the future.
        when i wrote this comment i forgot to add a content warning to this fanfic. yes, there is one, and yes, it’s in the vein of maturity most people would be uncomfortable with (i def was) so. please proceed with caution, thank you. ๐Ÿ˜€


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