No more fiction.
*sighs* It’s nice to be back. Especially since you can only tell so much in the realm of once upon a time. It’s weird though, since t e c h n i c a l l y I wasn’t really gone but… it’s been interesting, okay?
Hi, it’s Jo, and you’re reading Late Night Rambles That Never End In Coherency. I’m your host, Jo the Semi Sorta Not Okay Confused Aloe Vera Plant. (I identify as an aloe vera plant now. I am still a yellow bird, just like life is still confusing.)
See, life is interesting. One day you’re trying to figure out how to make it through a day, and the next day you have to plan for four years. There’s a bit of a gap between a day and a year, but we make it work. Somehow.
The trick is how to express all of that without info-dumping, which I’ve never been a master of.
But I’m tired. I’ve been writing and planning and working and hoping and dreaming and falling and accidentally whacking a pole with a notebook because I thought it was an intruder and trying to pick up soggy papers, listening to NF (that’s it I’m a confirmed edgy person) and rapping His Story and Hamilton and having to explain my music choices to various individuals and getting stuck listening to BTS and then being left alone with my sole companion my MP3 player and meeting people I never thought I’d meet and on one hand this is something that’s never happened in life before and on the other hand this is all a normal Tuesday.
That was a reference. Credits aren’t mine.
And yet at the same time… there’s a lot of things to be grateful for, y’know? I mean, there’s life, but it’s the things in it. Krispy Kreme donuts. “Take as you will!” signs. Hugs. Lots of hugs. Ice cream with pretzels in them. Voice acting. SDCC. (OKAY OKAY TANGENT I WAS IN PUBLIC WHEN I WAS WATCHING THE MARVEL COMIC CON PANELS AND I LEGIT WAS SCREAMING SO LOUD A BUNCH OF PEOPLE ASKED IF I WAS OKAY MARVEL FANDOM HOW WE FEELING also I kid you not, when the cast for Shang-Chi came up I like… couldn’t breathe. I don’t think a lot of people realize how important representation is and this is so weirdly validating to know someone who looks like me is getting a role and that might sound selfish but I haven’t felt this encouraged in legit years okay tangent over let’s go 2020)
Air conditioning. Ukuleles. Names. People who care. Grammar. Delta cookies. They’re delicious. Dreams. Reality, occasionally. NF released an album. johnbcrist is hilarious and I don’t even know if I spelled his name right. Chikfila. Late night laughter. Gifted the movie + soundtrack. There’s just so much life to be lived and when you’re me, that’s a big deal.
Although, when you’re you, that’s also a big deal too. 😉
I wish I could be that blogger that’s writing this epic book on the side while being a radiant beam for the Lord! But I’m not. As for book, that’s sorta kinda existing idek and writing? It’s getting there. But it’s not epic. It’s not a book. It’s soft and simple and unusually emotional and it’s really not meant for a platform. I’m just putting it out there like the donuts. “Take as you will!” And honestly, who wouldn’t love to be a radiant beam– if not for the Lord, at least for somebody, right? But I can’t be that either. (Wow. So shocking.) I… I exist, on the human level. And I try, okay? I try. It’s tiring.
It’s also sadly really self-centered, and for that I apologize. Content is rather hard to create that’s not up close, and the details of mine aren’t really that pretty.
But I just wanted to pop in and say thanks for liking it so far, and just validating that if you’re tired… that’s still a good thing. You’ve lived a lotta life.
There’s still so much more to be lived.
So get out there and avoid the bugs. *thumbs up*